I hate H1N1. I had to go to the hospital and take nasty medication and everything! I was sore and I couldn't walk, touch anything, or breath. I was sick for over 10 days with it and then the doctors told me I was able to go to school, so I did. I was doing just fine until I got home yesterday, I started to weeze again (and by weezeing I mean I sounded like a broken squeky toy TT^TT)and I was taken to the hospital again and the doctors told me I still had H1N1 and that I was doing even worse. So they made me go through a ct machine and they told me my tracha was closeing inward and they said that I needed to get this medication called contrast put in me so I let them and I went through the machine again and I stopped breathing and my heart failed on me and a dozon doctors came in and started to get everything ready for a code blue (cardaic arrest. Thankfully I started to breath again and they told me that I had an allergy reaction to the contrast. The nurse told me that I had to stay in a room until the steroids kicked in. But Im on medication again and I can't breath because my trachea is swollen because of the ct scan that they did but I'm just telling you guys this because Khikun was a bit worried about me and tomorrow I get to rest because of Vetrens day so I'm gonna be at home sleeping and reading some new manga and don't worry I will be just fine, for now. ^^

How would you tell a person you loved them? I mean, I've had this crush on this person for a while and I'm so tired of bottleing up every bit of emotion that I have. I'm so use to bottleing up everything but now it's just hurting me.

In class I'd get this pain constriction in my chest because I think about the matter to much. I'm friends with them but, it feel awkward to be around them. I just can't look them straight in the face without thinking about me and this person together as a couple.

I've kinda been a bad friend and not telling people the truth lately, But I don't mean it to be like I don't trust them! Jusst that I have trouble showing my emotions and feelings toward another person. It not only hurts them but it also hurts me in the end. I just need someone to hear me out in my time of need because my family is so immature they'll tell there friends that I'm going nuts or that I'm just in a crabby mood.( Like usual. *Sigh*)

It's really bothering me and I can't concentrate on my school work and I now I'm failing three classes. I just don't know why it's bothering me now of all the times I've thought about it, I guess I've been feeling lonely because I've refused to talk to anyone or they haven't talked to me. I just don't know whats wrong with me, maybe schools finally getting it's toll on me, Hahaha.

I have been trying to get my mind off of it by writing the "Lost Memory" Fan-Fiction and reading some yaoi novels but it's not working! I've been trying my hardest to get some people to hang out with me but it still doesn't get my mind off of the subject. I'd really like some advice to try to help me get my mind off of it or try to get me together with this person, I'd really appritiate it and maybe it might help me with my relationship status.

I'd actually enjoy talking to someone for a change instead of the voice in my head, even though it does help me with my homework, I'd like some human interaction or something to get my mind off of the whole 'I'm gonna shrivle up and die in a hole.' thought that keeps popping up in my head everytime I think about the person I love so very deeply. And for some odd reason I keep haveing this dream where I live in a house all by myself and then I get these threatning letters and then I get taken away and commit suicide when I'm left with no other choices. Wow...My life is leading no where right now...Ha ha ha. I don't know if its depression or something else thats makeing me think this way. I'd like some comments on your thought or if you'd like to talk with me I'd love that even more, I really and greatly appriciate it!

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Hey this video is so awesome and I'd like you guys to watch it to. It would make me feel awesome. It reminds me of BB at haloween time. ^^
It's such a great video that I'm createing a Deathnote version of it. If you'd like to help just comment below but you'd have to watch the video first to help.

Hello~
I'm writeing a bunch of fanfics for all you yaoi lovers and for my awesome friend I have the cutest story that I know ;you'll love I'll post them up when I get my computer back from the shop....^^

My computer is at a shop getting worked on so I won't hae it for a LONG time!!!!! THIS SUCKS!!!!!!!!!! *sigh* ah well.....I'll have a very special gift to give to you lovely watchers and to my awesome friend